post-pangea

so the plates have broken up to form continents separated by oceans,and things will evolve in their own way apart from each other.


sean has found another host for his monday nights, and we appreciate his time here. he was very generous and worked immensely hard. i am sad that he is gone.


the inevitable result of change is to have some people fall thru the
cracks. i suppose it is the fate of a space such as this to have
consistant rumblings from inside or out that move it - perpetually to
something new - but i am sorry for any inconvenience or sorrow.
usually our needs here are based more in the logistics of survival,
yet emotional resiliance is necessary to make ends meet as well.


there seems to be a great sentimentality regarding the past, the
mulchy origins of this place, and perhaps it was easier to break and
form anew than to bridge and brace against inevitable evolution.
it is very simple.


this is an amazing space, but it is just a space. it was founded by
people with the ideals and the lack of experience that anyone has at
first. it has been kept alive by those same people plus me. and now
my partner and i plus two new people are here to care for the space.
all of the 'drama' has been very exhausting, and i am proud of the
space - that it still stands. you are part of that, and i appreciate
that.


we have been involved since the beginning, i joined a couple months
after the first show. we do not have the income that earlier people
involved had. we have a humble life selling second chance books. in
order to have this space continue we have to ensure its sustainability
thru a strong collective system. things are different now.


nostalgia junkies will have much to pay tribute to. that is one of the
most beautiful things of life.
and we can hope that they can eventually experience what is hosted
here again...just listen to art...


sean is a great producer, and i know he will be very happy. we were
lucky to have him, even though his shows were some of the most
challenging.


as for il corral, i hope you enjoy it, and continue to make it your
own.


love
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christie.

sean's monday nights moved to pehrspace

we are glad sean has found a new home for his weekly shows.

violence and the opposite of it...

after hearing what happened to sean when he was in his neighborhood...

i feel helpless - wishing i could help him - and am shocked into realizing how safe we think we are...

i think the breaking and blood, despite the jovial beastish fun, was too much for him between getting mugged and getting shot at with something.

he has been very brave. he is on my list of people to wish health to. my grandfather may pass on soon and he is far away right now. i am lucky to know he is with loved ones, but it is still hard.

thank you everyone who helped out during that show which are the many people sean mentioned, but so many more, because whenever anything happens people are so on it. i hope no one thinks anyone is upset at them. we just need to be more careful - like when we got the warning from the community before.

we simply must be aware - to think for tomorrow and the next - creating our own with passion toward sustainability.

valentines

apart from my love for love, and the fact that i was born today, i maintain my belief that valentines is more than the hallmarkian scheme which can make anyone cynical. it is a time to tell people what they mean to you. to spread and share love.

the sunday before - with excellent documentaries by the druid underground - then valentines gay, a little too rowdy for our own good perhaps, but celebratory regardless, now make the quiet of mundane things another kind of challenge.

we still need $1924 to finish the sound system. we have ordered it, but it will be shipped in parts as the house can afford. this system has five year warrantees on it, and it is excellent equipment. we've made a great investment in our future.

we just had a huge water bill to pay that set us back a bit, so that is disheartening, but it means we need to work harder than ever to finish the pa.

sometimes i don't know how i make it. i credit my interest in the bodhisattva perspective of life to my longevity despite adversity, but i practice in small ways what is based on such high ideals, possibly unattainable for one living in the city, in a world run on money.

obviously i am a humble culture rat and my contributions to the evolution of the world are debatable. i try every moment i can. i try for myself to cultivate these practices.

so nice and quiet...

this place is lovely when it has down time.

you have to have both silence and sound to balance any space.

just recently a noise artist i was excited to host had to cancel due to complications in march. i am disappointed, but i think that date is going to be perfect for a visual artist reception. if not that then another time. i am in no rush.

we just go on with the beauty.

live and learn

we have changed to a google group : il-corral

(the sign up is on the site www.ilcorral.net or you can go to google)

i lost all my photos of the place when the password was changed, but i will think of it as a new start. the password was apparently changed on january 29th. i read an email on the 30th that stated so. this was after i had been unable to login with the il corral i.d. since i had posted about the benefit. bob has apparently not been able to reset the password with his knowledge, so i have counted it off as a sign to move forward.

sean let everyone know how well the benefit was supported, and also about the article in the times. we discussed at yesterday's house meeting that he would also send something out to the yahoo group letting everyone know that we have changed to google groups.

i haven't explored the new setup very much yet, but it seems more interactive for the group members (i guess you can make your own pages etc.)

i wanted to post about ladies night! we have some fabulous and enthusiastic performers, and already we're getting a donation of 8 brand new dresses! we're going to be having a benefit for killradio.org sometime soon as well. and i'm working on getting a vegan informance night together (learn & eat & hear some music) so if there are any vegan bands or bands who support the cause who would like to do a benefit please contact me.

also, i have finally been able to email a little bit with bob, and for the record he has admirably returned the speakers that were donated to the corral, and the donation money we had paid to him for the p.a.. i do believe he tried to help us with the yahoo group problem.

i apologize that i had to process all of this experience in public, but i didn't know how else to defend this place.

i had a situation in school where i was put into a much bigger public/media realm than i was ready for and i felt that i did not defend my cause adequately. i am shy of media because of this, and it was very hard for me to be brave enough to address the group, but i had come to know the people and i felt that it was something i could do for the space since no one else could. i told the truth about the money, and if my outrage at the accusations was too much i apologize. i was terribly hurt by this whole event.

if i did the wrong thing at any time it has not been my intention. even the silly posts on the noise board were just some relieving sense of poetic justice.

what we do here is really hard. i am trained to read and write poetry not business agreements, but if we as 'artists' want to continue to keep this place open for 'artists' then we have to do everything. we have to be the bouncer, the recycler, we have to work the door, we have to clean up, check email, update the site, keep the bills up to date etc. it's just us, and a few other devoted volunteers when they can help. that's it.

i am not at all perfect, but i learned so much from bob, and he was always much older than us, more established financially and world wise. he called us the kids. we went thru great steps to make sure the place could continue after he left in september. we have done a lot of work on the place, and when he came back for turn the screws he helped. and then came all of the rest of the history which is why his email was so shocking and sad.

as i have said, i forgive him. and i wish him well of course, but he is not welcome here now. it is too fresh a wound, and still i do not understand why he did it. there would have to be time...for everyone...to heal.

if i am weak in this regard i apologize, but i can only do so much.

right now we have our new pa coming! it should begin to arrive wednesday and we'll have the core set. there are still other components necessary which we will need to raise money for, but i don't know if people want updates on that or not. sean has said people are tired of hearing about money. i would have wished to simply be able to provide a pa, but it was something that we had to go to the community for help with. and you helped with stellar response! thank you.

still working on the yahoo groups...

now sean can post on the yahoo groups, but the il corral login is no more, so i've now had all the pictures of the space that i took stranded in cyberland with a new password keeping them locked.

i find it hard to believe this happened on its own, i received an email from yahoo that the password was changed on january 29th. it makes sense considering the situation that has gone on, but i'm worn out from this situation. apparently it's no one's doing.